all this is because of facebook, because of my stupid like for talking and talking and talking and typing and saying everything there is to know to my friends…. god fucking dammit this is just so unfair i want to rewind time to that one stupid ass moment before everything just escalated and ruined everything. my nosy ass mom decides to stalk my messages and obviousl your going to read things you dont want to hear. now im like in freaking house arrest or whatever its just a constant reminder every god dam mother fucking day. it just sucks cuz she knows. she fucking knows. ughhh im so upset right now i just want to say fuck fuck fuck fuck fckk fucking piece of shit everything. this is all my fault, for being a dumbass and leaving my facebook open. now she knows AND ITS NOT EVEN A BIG FUCKING DEAL OH MY JESUS LIKE SERIOUSLY ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD LIKE i dont do drugs , i dont go around slepeing with the world and being a college student is automatically being an alcoholic so whatever. point is iwasnt event that freaking bad mom like seriosuly now im in freaking like house arrest no permission to do anything ever cant see my friends only like my two best friends who both have a boyfriend well the guy best friend has a girfriend and every freaking boy i know is not a good candidate to be a good boyfriend because im either not attracted to them physicially or they are players assholes or something retarded but this is just unfair i want to punch everything. im not sure if im mad upset angry frustrated dissapointed furious exhausted i dont even know how i spelled that corrrctly, im terrible at spelling because im typing at like lightning speed its not even funny, im stil mad. but the crappy thing is my anger turns to sadness. im like angry grr i want to kill you then i suddly feel like an urge to cry and its like damit am i mad or wtf is going on i dont ven know what the point in this is anymore im just writing whatever comes out of my head and the only good part of today is that i composed the begining of my own song and it sounds really freaking cool to me and i dont care what you think . im upset and im a girl i want chocolate but i feel so fat its like ugh just give me a chill pill aghhhhhhhhhh :( fuck.